Sometimes, after writing and publishing posts,
I get this strange feeling.
Why am I doing this?
When that happens,
I try to go back to the beginning.
I think about why I started writing,
what I wanted,
and what I was feeling back then.
But sometimes,
even when I go back to that starting point,
my mind still feels blank.
On days like that,
I try not to force myself to find meaning right away.
I believe meaning comes later.
For now,
I just write,
publish,
and keep a record.
Maybe someday,
when I look back at these posts,
the reason I kept writing
will become clear.