I Knew I Was Avoiding It — And Still Chose to Escape
I spent two years avoiding what I was supposed to do.
People often put things off.But for me, it wasn’t occasional —it had become a habit.
I watched videos — YouTube, Netflix, things like that.I slept.And some days, I did absolutely nothing.
Out of everything,reading became my easiest escape.
Because reading didn’t make me feel guilty.
When I was reading, it felt like I was doing something meaningful. It comforted me.And most of all, I could tell myself, “This will help me someday.”
Recently, I heard someone say, “Exercise and reading never betray you.”
And I think that’s true.
Even now, when I look back at those years I considered wasted, only reading doesn’t feel like a waste.
And to be honest, the thoughts I used to rely on —telling myself “this will be useful someday” —are actually helping me now.
But that doesn’t justify the avoidance.
I wasn’t reading. I was escaping through reading.
On the surface, it looked fine. But the things I needed to dowere still left undone.
So now, I’m changing my approach.
I read at a set time.And the things I need to do —I just do them. No more hiding behind reasonable excuses.