I still feel a little embarrassed every time I post something.
I want more views,
but at the same time,
I’m scared that someone might actually read it.
It’s strange.
When I read my old posts again,
they feel cringey.
So I hesitate.
Should I post this or not?
Even this post,
where I’m admitting this embarrassment,
I thought about not posting it.
But I post it anyway.
Because I made a promise to myself
to upload one post every day.
I want to get away from this contradiction,
but I also see myself staying right in it.
I want people to read my writing,
but I’m also afraid of being seen.
I know, rationally,
that what I share is only a small part of me.
Just a piece of my thoughts and emotions.
But even so,
showing even that small part of myself
still feels difficult.
Still, I post it.
Because I said I would.